Self-Offence 3

Did you ever fall asleep
with a smile on your face?
Have you ever cried before sleep?
Have you ever tried to live in slower pace?

Have you ever tasted the bitterness of self-eviction?
or do you know what its like being out of selection?
Do you know what loosing friends is like?
Or do you know what it's like being in dislike?

I guess you don't realise
it only seems so easy
Maybe you want to compromise
and you're just suprisingly busy.

Break me, chrash me and finish me off
I may feel better when thrown away
Better than beeing pressed and sealed-off
by your misunderstanding way-

I wish I was dead
I wish I was asleep
I wish I clsed my eyes with a smile
I wish I lived that day without a weep.

I ruin everything I can
and I make everyone hate me
everyone who met me quickly ran
and no-one attempts to save me

I, again, am suffering with self-offence
sent down to knees with decadence
My soul-eyes are blind
no chance of finding a bind.

I HATE MYSELF, I HATE MYSELF, I HATE MYSELF.