My one and only testament

I'm dying.
Lying here and crying.

I'm declining.
thinking of going and leaving.


I don't wanna live in despair
i would rather leave forever.
I never thought it would be fair
but atleast you could pretend to be a feather.

How i wish you could know
what i needed from you,
But you were blind and low
that I could only run away from you.

This is the end of all
this is my last will
my one and only testament
before i take the pill.

Hard enough - i can't tell you why,
but you're still my friend,
my little broken glass of wine
helping me descend.

I am falling apart
the opposite of a jigsaw
I am falling apart
longing for a freefall

Everyone is once broken
but this is not about heart
this is about heaven and hell
about hitting or missing with a dart.

This is the end of all
this is my last will
my one and only testament
before I take the pill

Again I find myslef lying here,
dying and crying.
My one and only testament
I failed to find a settlement.